December 18, 2009

365 Project: Day 63

Everything is starting to line up, one thing after another. Like ducks in a row. Everything seems to be falling into place just as it should be.  

I had a conversation today about realizing and accepting that you are exactly where you're supposed to be at this moment in your life. Its a hard thing to come to terms with, especially when you thought you'd be somewhere else by now. There is ultimately a reason why you are where you are, and not where you think you should be. 

The past few months have been full of some major lessons for me. Its such a strange, but satisfying, feeling to realize that you are changing and growing as a person. I feel like I'm becoming who I was always meant to be. Its sort of like I've been living in the dark, endlessly searching for a switch and all of a sudden the light has come on. Like a moth to the flame, I'm drawn to it, powerless to resist its glow.

I'm slowly learning to let go and to stop trying to control every little thing. That is really hard for me. Every day it becomes more obvious that I have no control over anything. Life is just taking me along for the ride. What is supposed to happen, will happen no matter how much I try to force it or resist it.

Don't get me wrong, I am still working very hard, I am stressed out, and I am definitely exhausted. But I wouldn't be doing all of this if I didn't love every second of it. It seems like all of these amazing people keep coming into my life and these great opportunities keep presenting themselves. There is a beautiful momentum happening and I'm finally giving in and letting myself get swept away.